My emotions have been all over the board lately…I have two very nice gentlemen who, somehow, have been able to fly under the radar and penetrate my defenses…I am not exactly sure how that happened. After publicly and privately proclaiming my willingness, not to forget eagerness at being single, happy and carefree with my casual dating situation (couple of dinners here, meetings over coffee there), how did I get here? I’m currently at a place where both guys like me very much (I think) and are appreciative to what I could potentially bring to the table in terms of relationship currency. And these two fellas couldn’t be more alike AND different, talk about a sista being confused. Both have the heart of an artist and the mind of an astute business executive, which is an extremely attractive and magnetic quality. But how they are showing their interest in me is in start contrast. Basically, one guy is aggressive and forward in letting me know his feelings. The other, talk about passive aggressive….but he still shows affection in the most simple and sweet ways. The comfort level is amazing. I don’t know. We will see what develops. Both need to step it up though, before neither gets the prize.
So I am strongly considering going an all out dating hiatus (or dating freeze, whichever term makes you happy), but I’m not sure. Several of my friends have decided to do it, and they are having great results…But seriously, do I want to give up going and interacting with men just because? HECK NO…I admire my friends who are able to do it , and I even respect the reasons for which they have decided to halt on “dating.” But after taking a long look at myself, I can honestly say…I’m okay. Although there are things that I personally want to work on about myself, I feel comfortable with my state of being at the moment, that allowing a man to get to know me would not be a distraction or a detriment at this point in time. Still…the dating hiatus thing is one to chew one, who knows, maybe I will take the plunge.